Journey to Becoming a Social Worker: College Life & Grades!

Sooo this year I am suppose to be graduating “early” June 1st. I have two courses during the Summer I have to take then I’m Natural Hair is Beautiful (50)completely done! Thank God! Since there is only one graduation ceremony per year, my college allows you to graduate early as long as you have two or one courses left to complete and they are already paid for prior to registering for graduation. I’m not sure if any other colleges practice that or not but I just found that out thanks to my new EOP counselor. I had my old EOP counselor for two years and up until 2 months ago I reluctantly switched due to traveling reasons. I am 100% thankful I did because she had been misleading me and if I would have stayed under her I would be in the gutter right now. God works his miracles, right?

The courses I am taking this semester are my human services ( 2 classes), biology and math. I already found out I got an A in both my Human Services classes. I am very thankful for  that, hopefully it will raise my GPA. As for my Biology class if I Ace my Exam I will pass with a D. My Math class, if I do well in the exam I may pass with a D or C. Either way passing is passing lol.  I just need to study instead of blogging right now. I usually do well when it comes to Summer courses so hopefully I get an A or B, nothing less.

After that I really want to open my jewelry store back up online and search for a job. Hopefully get a job. Wherever God leads me.

-Jazzie

Similiar To Bella Swan..

Bella SwanTwo things that people have always said and/or mentioned toward me….things pertaining to my race or personality.

Friends/Strangers:“Are you really black??”…”The white girl is blacker than you!”..And most recently..”Your boyfriend must not be black.”

Family members:“She’s anti-social.” Or “She’s always quiet.”

Now surprisingly a lot of this stuff does not come from strangers, some of them have come from friends a lot have come from family members. I choose not to communicate with a lot of my family members because I do not trust them. No one can hold water and I want to be as far away from the drama as I can.

As for friends…outside the internet I have no made a friend since I graduated high school…why? I don’t know I guess its hard for me…its not easy to really find someone that understands me AND cares enough to hang around. If they do then they already have a life they are engaged…it’s fine with me though a lot of times I prefer to be alone…except for at night. I hate sleeping alone.

So back to the title…the reason why I mentioned all of this is because  a while ago my dad said to me, “You remind me of Bella from Twilight.” At first I took that as insult but brushed it aside but then I started watching the movies and finding out more about her (minus reading the book)….I find out that I am a hell of  a lot like her lol.

Things in common:

Socially awkward to people who want to know me unless they keep throwing themselves at me or I warm up to them. Willing to accept someone. I rather have invested my feelings and deep inner emotions within a relationship rather than vent to friends or family. My partner is the closest person to me and the person I love the most. Have a mom a that over reacts to things and wants to know everything and loves me. Have/had friends that wanted to be around me but I gradually pushed them away for relationship. Graduated. Smart. I have gone completely “crazy” when my boyfriend left me. Will choose love over lust…theres so much more I cn’t think of it right now but you get the drift.

Differences:

I don’t have  a boyfriend/husband.I don’t have a father that tries to understand me. I don’t have a bunch of people willing to accept me even though my decisions are rash and I don’t have two guys chasing after me at once. Never been bitten.

So from this…I am a huge Twilight fan, I think its awesome and yes I am the type of black girl with a body that you would usually see in the DAYUMM BIG BOOTY magazines…but I don’t have the snooty, whorish personality to match it. I am a Virgo though…lady in the street, freak in the bed 🙂

-Jazzie

College….Required to Take Irrelevant Courses and Waste Money

College student studying

College student studying

I love having my education and pursuing it to become a Social Worker. My education is very important to me…its my drive and hope to go further in the future, financially and mentally. But one thing that pisses me off is taking courses that are “required” of your degree that you really don’t need.

Why it pisses me off?  Well let me use my Biology course as an example. Two of my educational fears: taking a physical education class (I don’t like to be competitive, sports was never my thing…I will however workout) and taking any type of  science course. The reason why I fear taking science courses is because I don’t grasp it easily. I have to study my butt off, which I don’t have time for or I have to have a really GREAT professor to teach me and it just so happens that I have not only the worst professor but seemingly the dumbest.

*Small Rant But A Point To It*

Now for the professor that I have the class is scheduled at 10am. This jerk arrives to class 15 minutes early then begins class by taking attendance. When I arrive its about 9:58am because I have other classes that I am taking. So when I get there the attendance is already taken and I’ve been marked absent. Thats VERY fair. Then when class begins and he starts to lecture, he presents by slideshows so he goes over a slideshow and stays stuck the same slideshow for about 20 minutes and that includes him talking about some story that connects with his life that has nothing to do with the human brain. Then at the end of the class he says, “Guys we’re behind we really have to speed it up I can’t slow it down for you guys”….really? After you waste our time with your life story every freaking slideshow?? Then he says for people like me that keep failing their test,”you should be studying 4 hours a day.” I am a full-time student taking 18 credits…I don’t even have time to eat!

Don’t even get me started on the syllabus. Usually professors put in their syllabus the schedule for the whole semester including tests…not this jerk, no he leaves tests out of it purposely so that he can switch the date anytime. Like he did a few times where he told the class as a whole the test would be the next day then when we come to class all studied up and ready, he says oh no its going to be next week….just for the simple fact that he promised ONE student after class that he would extend it….seriously? Now don’t get me wrong, he’s a smart guy but his teaching tactic is moronic and dumb. He knows the material so well that he assumes everyone else does and teaches like you already know it.

I swear if I EVER get another professor like him I am going straight to the dean and showing my ass! I am wasting $1k on this course just to feel humiliated and dumb and the course isn’t even over yet I have already signed up to take it online next year.

But anyway, why it pisses me of is because its REQUIRED to take this course. Biology has NOTHING to do with Social Work…nothing at all. Social work is SOCIAL, interacting, helping, planning…why am I paying to waste my time???? So basically, I am being “required” to waste my time on things that don’t even have a ounce to do with my degree, its just “required”….that irritates me to the core and demotivates me to even attempt to pass the course.

I am suppose to graduate next year under the 2+2 program so hopefully it will be different going into my bachelors degree.

-Jazzie